Pregnancy, Uncategorized, Yourself

Know Thyself

One of the most important things I’ve learned (through many lessons) is that we need to know ourselves. I’ve found most people don’t, but it is super important to take a deep look inside. We need to know our strengths and most importantly our weakness’s.

Everything in my blog is connected in some form. I am hoping that if you are looking for answers in ways that my site can help you’ll start to see yourself, patterns of yourself. It’s these patterns we need to recognize in order to be better people, it arms us in ways that helps us battle our mountains; demons.

I am an ENFJ – The Protagonist.

Go to 16 Personalities to take the free assessment and find out who you are. It’s pretty awesome and eerily accurate. I was like whoa they’ve been in my head. Scary.

Here’s a little about me from my assessment; this is going somewhere I promise…

ENFJs are genuine, caring people who talk the talk and walk the walk, and nothing makes them happier than leading the charge, uniting and motivating their team with infectious enthusiasm.

ENFJs are natural-born leaders, full of passion and charisma, unafraid to stand up and speak when they feel something needs to be said (for those who know me, I’m sure you’d agree with that last statement ;D.) Forming around two percent of the population, they are oftentimes our politicians, our coaches and our teachers, reaching out and inspiring others to achieve and to do good in the world. 

enfj hurt
Things that hurt ENF’s

The interest ENFJs have in others is genuine, almost to a fault – when they believe in someone, they can become too involved in the other person’s problems, place too much trust in them. They have a tremendous capacity for reflecting on and analyzing their own feelings, but if they get too caught up in another person’s plight, they can develop a sort of emotional hypochondria, seeing other people’s problems in themselves, trying to fix something in themselves that isn’t wrong.


People with the ENFJ personality type are passionate altruists, sometimes even to a fault, and they are unlikely to be afraid to take the slings and arrows while standing up for the people and ideas they believe in.

It seems what I am good at is also what can become my weakness. That’s why I said it’s important to know thyself! To anyone in my personal life, if you’ve ever received a letter of some sort from me, then know it is because I have invested myself in you – that means that I care deeply. If you’ve taken anything from the above statements you can see that is part of who I am. I want to move people to do better – to be better. I am also super emotional, so I can’t always say what I want out load because I’ll just cry. I care too much. And yes, some poor people have actually received a letter (some more than one) from me. From my grandma to my husband. I can’t help it, it’s what I do. It just means I love you ;D


You know who else is an ENFJ (this will help you understand me a little more) The Oracle and Morpheus in the movie The Matrix. If any two people are a good description of who I am and how I think, it’s those two for sure. I talk just like they do. ;D LOL sad but true… What if I told you just a few families controlled the world? Would you go down the rabbit hole? LOL I’m just a very spiritual, religious type person.


I think deep. I can’t have small conversations of just chit chat. It’s hard for me. I want to dive deep. I want to search the world for truths, for meaning. I want to talk about who moves the world, and whats going on underneath. I want to change it and save it. I am the Protagonist.



Who are you?

We all have a place in this world. We all need each others help. God needs our help. Each one of us have gifts He gave us and we’re like puzzle pieces. We fit together to get bigger, greater things done. But if we don’t know our self than satan or people can easily snare us. I have fallen in many traps; that if I just known my weakness’s in those areas I could have easily avoided them. So I learned from them.

I have often thought I was an Elijah or a Jeremiah, and maybe I’m suppose to be… But as of late I have realized I’m the lonely old Jonah. God calls me one way and all I do is complain about it… Grumpy old Jonah. Life kinda threw me in that direction, but it’s good that I can see it. It shows me which direction I am going.  Sorry Jonah…


I highly recommend you go to 16 Personalities and see who you are.

It really does help.

So how does this all tie in to my blog. So I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately, or God is just revealing some more things about myself… It’s not easy to see some things, but it is needed for growth.

According to scientific studies, postpartum depression is linked to having a past history of depression. When I was a kid I was a manic-depressant. I was even a little suicidal back then. Bla bla bla life, parents, people… It’s all psychology – which I love. But I had a horrible experience in high school and all these years I thought it was because people were a bunch of jerks. After going through my postpartum depression and knowing how I felt and how things seemed in my perspective I think that my school-aged depression had to be the same way. ( I have also been reading a lot of celebrities depression symptoms; which matched mine) So I put myself through hell as a teen, and didn’t even know it. I thought the world hated me; and maybe they did, but a lot of it could have been prevented had I know myself more.

Why am I this way? I don’t know. I think it is because I dig deeper and want a more deeper experience in life. I expect so much (too much). I use to think everyone was like me. I thought people knew God and were just ignoring Him or lying about it.. Because even as a child I felt His presence – I spoke to Him. I just knew He was there. Even when I was cursing Him, He was always there for me. So I think that is why I went through so many things. Like I said in my postpartum blog, I heard things in songs that others didn’t. That isn’t that different from the normal me. It’s easy for me. I can see meaning in traditional Hollywood films others can’t see. There is actually a lot of religion thrown in our faces – but it’s not accurate nor biblical. I feel like I am in The Matrix of life. So many things are hiding it from us; movies, books, cell phones, Facebook… etc.

So I guess the moral of the story is stop, take a look at yourself, stop looking at other people and actually look at yourself. Who are you? What are your strengths? What are your weakness’s? Now figure out how to learn from them. Take the good and grow on that. Change the bad, or know how to avoid it. Fill it in with good. God looks at our hearts; which is good. Because sometimes we’re all just a pile of poo. Thank you Lord for having mercy on us daily. Whew, seriously daily. Thank you!!! I know I need it.

For those who know me. I’m sorry if I am crazy. I just want more. I want you to be more. I don’t like wasting my time with meaningless stuff, and I have to remember not everyone is like me. Not everyone can see what I see. I need mercy and I need to give mercy. If it’s my job, then it’s my job, I can’t be putting that on you. Have patience with one another. Love more. Be more. Stop putting everything on everyone else! We need to fix number one first! Then maybe everything else will fall into place.


Now go take the assessment!  

And tell your spouse and children to as well. It helps with that too!! My hubby is the ISFJ – The Defender, and my daughter is the INTP – The Logician.


——>  10 Things you should never say to a ENFJ (Found this on

NFJs need to make time to access their other cognitive functions to avoid empathy burnout. NFJs can spend quiet time in thought to access introverted intuition. They can also take a quiet walk outside and look around at nature to access intuition and sensing. Getting a change of scenery, engaging in some light problem solving, relaxing in a hot bath or drinking a cup of tea can all give the NFJ a break from overusing their extroverted feeling. The main goal is for them to have a section of time each day to unplug from other people’s emotions and feelings.

This stuff is amazing. This is so true. Seriously. When I’m stressed all I have to do is look outside. It calms me down. So if you see me staring out of a window I’m mentally detoxing or removing myself from the current problem …  and of course tea!


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s